Brienne writes

Was doing something really boring, packing my last drawer. Many months of not clearing it out and looking at stuff in there got it packed full of junk. A little boredom and my fingers go to Facebook. I didn't delete it off my phone in case I ever get bored and want to catch up on my friends' lives. Yeah right. They know what's coming.  One video, and then another. It's 20 minutes on one. (Trigger warning: Abuse)  I'm hooked on videos of child abduction and abuse. ): Who wouldn't be? The cases are so disturbing I cannot fathom why anyone would do such a thing.  But Facebook knows and Facebook doesn't care. It keeps feeding me videos like that so I won't get off it.  You think you're consuming content.  N. O.  It's consuming you.  The algorithm sees what you cannot stop watching or reading and feeds you content after content of things like that. It doesn't care if it's nice animal videos or disgusting, horrifying ones. As long as it sees yo...

Of course I was too ambitious. I slept around 2 am last night. Had the hardest workout in a long time, I did 4 sets of 15 reps of Russian twists, squats, crunches, and some back and upper body exercise all with a 2l or 3l weights.  I dreamt of zombies, the really scary ones which wouldn't die easily, I even remember having to slice one by its neck. Yikes.  So I woke up at 10 am instead.  But I'd love to report it's Day 2 of working out.  Yesterday I did a run and the exercises above.  Today, I went for a run again and did 2 x 15 seconds dead hangs.  While on a high from the run, I almost tweeted that I'd do a 31 day exercise challenge.   Am I glad I did not post it? Yes. But it's still something I'd love to try.  On reflecting, I am still living my ideal life. I get to go for a run because I want to, I get to wake up at whatever time I wish.  Can you live your ideal life right now? How does it look like? Share them with me by typing in the co...

Day 1. I used to despise myself for having to do Day 1 again. The countless of times I've started over.  I felt like I've lost all my progress.  Now, I'm just glad I'm alive, I'm aware of how far I've ventured off the path I want to take and I've pulled myself back to do a Day 1 again.  I'm glad I have all my failed experiences with me. I've learnt to embrace them and hold them close as I take my first step to achieving greatness.  Greatness to me is being able to wake up at a time I set for myself to fulfil my own obligations to myself.  To choose what I want to do with my day to bring me closer to a future I want to live. It doesn't mean I haven't already achieved greatness, there's just more work to do to get me closer to achieving fulfilment in this life.  My ideal morning looks like this 0700 : Wake up and meditate 0745 : Prepare food and look at tasks I need to fulfil for the day and read 0815 : Work out / Study  0930 : If I've ...

Momentum is an interesting thing. I thought I got into the momentum of writing everyday and not skipping two days in a row, but I clean forgotten that I was doing that and was rudely shocked when I realised I've missed so many days in a row.  So is my writing not a habit yet? I don't know. But I knew the days I didn't write, I prioritised sleep over writing. I needed to sleep to function.  Now that I'm back, I want to get back to writing, to sharing my thoughts, the lessons I've learnt and to be a better writer.  If this is the first post you're reading, Hi! Welcome! Watch me fail fast, fail hard and stand back up again and again.  I've failed countless times on here but I'm not backing down.  Always wanted to start writing? Go create an account and just start bashing the keyboards away. 

Sitting here in the third airbnb of the trip. The dryer is making cracking noises as the metal of the lingerie smash against the insides of it. The fan is circulating the air from Gold Coast. Sure is a beautiful day. Or night that is. I have everything I need.  My parents with me, happy and healthy. That's all I need. The skyline of Gold Coast is beautiful. What do you need? Are you happy with what you have? 

/personal Feeling like you made it but you didn't. Still got to give it to myself for making the move. Making the move to quit on a job I was no longer growing in. Making a move to bring my parents for a trip. I'm sitting here in the living room of the home for tonight, an Airbnb we booked.  Bro and parents asleep in the room. I'm filled with immense gratitude we made it. We did it fam. We did.  To the 10 year old Brienne,  look! Zhe Zhe brought us overseas!  And bonus, with parents and bro! To the Bree a year ago, I'm proud of you.  You awesome little piece of shit, I'm so freaking proud of you. The world out there is your oyster Work hard, manifest abundance Go get it!

My last day falls on 14 May. But it's a Sunday.  We don't have school on Saturdays and Sundays so technically, my last day falls on 12th of May, Friday. I couldn't finish packing up my stuff and I left something important at work. I have to go back and retrieve it and finish packing. I woke up with an alarm but I set it slightly later. Took my time to get ready and head to work.  I woke up hungry so I went to get breakfast for myself and my colleagues. It's a routine I have for workdays.  Reached work and everything feels the same except I don't have classes to rush to, no work I have to do. Colleagues knew I was coming back. I don't usually leave my place in a mess. It was in a mess because I was chased off on Friday.  Ate my tea leaf eggs at my desk as I chit chat with my school counsellor, PY. It feels the same yet slightly different.  Went over to the other staff room to handover some documents and materials.  A colleague J exclaimed, "Eh? Brienne! Why...

I like today.  The heat, the sweat from just walking to the bus stop.  The enjoying of a meal together. Great service. Being surprised by birthday cake. The polaroid photo to take home. The stroll. The existential question "What is your why?" Life.

  That's a wee bit of how I feel right now. Sad that's it's over. But a hell lot of excitement, hopefulness, curiosity of what's to come next. Hi, we haven't had a formal introduction. I'm Brienne. I'm from Singapore.  I became unemployed today. I've been working since I was a teenager.  No grad trips, no month long holiday or a hiatus of any sort.  I don't mean short week trips or a 10-day trip.  In fact, my longest trip of any kind was exactly 10 days. I'm not talking about taking a holiday.  But I'd love to just be unemployed for a while and just chill. Or like what Kevin Kelly said, you need to spend some time just goofing off, doing nothing .  Take it from Kevin Kelly pic.twitter.com/2NrVOo7adu — Paul Millerd (@p_millerd) May 11, 2023 So, I'm going to just do that for a while.  --- If you're from Twitter, say hi! Glad to see you here.  Send me a dm or comment below.  Have a beautiful life! 

"I'm leaving, my last day is this Friday." "Yes, I heard." "I'm going to miss you." "I will miss you too. Wherever you go, I know you'll be okay. You take care okay?", the school librarian said as she held my arms lovingly. "You take lots of care too!"

Paul was 33 when he started his pathless path. I'll be 32 in a few days time.  Then 35 in 3 years time.  Wouldn't it be awesome? What would be? Taking a leap of faith and seeing where that takes me. The unknown is pretty scary but what's scarier is remaining rooted to the ground, unhappy and thinking you're stuck but you're the only one stopping yourself from getting up and moving.  You're not a plant Brienne. And happy to have made that realisation I don't know when. I'm the only one I know on this path right now. Other than my Dad who has been living the path.  I knew a long time ago that I'll somehow be on this path. Many years back, when my Dad was starting out, I remember asking him, can I join you? And he said, "Go get a couple years of experiences before you come back and talk. Because how do you coach others if you haven't been through trials and tribulations?" Never thought I'll be here . Somewhat there. Forging my own pat...

There is so many ads! 2 stories, 2 ads, 2 posts, 1 ad?! Our attention is what they're monetising.  What is becoming of society?  In public transport, I see 90% of people scrolling on their phones.  Tiktok. Instagram.  I think texting someone is still fine, isn't that what phones were for in the beginning? So easily I'm getting back into doom scrolling (if I don't stop myself). I'm noticing that based on my activity on there, (first day I stopped on a reel of these really cute twins I'm following) they feed me stuff I like watching.  An example: The same twins came up right when I open up Instagram today. You know what they're doing don't you? Get you sucked back in and trap you there so you're not thinking up plans to save the world. Silly ain't it.  But how many people notice their attention being hijacked? We voluntarily give our attention to these ads. I don't wanna lose what traction I've gained from the 2 times 30-day experiment. I...

Day 1 of going back on Instagram after a month off it. 2 toddlers, Harley and Harper saying "bonjour" greeted me. Clicked on stories and watched a friend posting she quit her job.  Watched another friend's story about finding out about her energetic fields.  Enough of Instagram. I hope I still feel the same about Instagram tomorrow. Will update this space. 

Everything and nothing all at once. Stillness. Quietness. Solitude. I like it like this.  Back to a sense of normalcy with my writing. The routine of sitting down in front of my laptop after a shower.  Nothing else to do. Nothing to distract me.  I can't wait to start my mornings like this. My nights like this.  Just writing away. Will I really do it?

 "...I'm happy to meet all of you,  previously in ... Then when we merged.., it was really intimidating but everyone's so nice here and I've learnt so much from all of you. I wish everyone all the best. Be happy. And go and live your dreams!" That was what I said for my short farewell speech today.  I got emotional standing in front of everyone. I almost teared. I'm glad I managed to contain my emotions.  Goodbyes are never easy. But if you don't close a chapter, how do you open a new one?

You need:  A piece of paper and writing material. Find a quiet and conducive place.   Just sit with me for 5 minutes.  Very simple.  Be still. What's going through your head? (You can write some of your thoughts down) Thank you for taking 5 minutes for yourself. Now go and have an awesome day!

Did you write today? Awesome. Great attempt.  You will probably look back and cringe when you read this but honestly? I think you did great. I can tell that you had an especially hard day today.  I saw you writing a draft, hitting backspace, going on Youtube and watching Dan Koe .  I like Dan Koe. He taught us so much. Can you tell me what you learnt from that video? Basically he mentioned to create a business to solve your own problems and sell the solution.  And the best way to sell it is through an education business through your personal brand. Nice.  Is that something you can work on? Oh. Then what's stopping you? There's so many things to be doing and too little time. There's so much I want to work on but I don't know where to start.  Hold on, slow down. That's alright. Great you have a lot you want to work on. Take it 1 step at a time. The best thing you're experiencing right now is the infant stage. Where nobody knows who you are and ...